Fate?

I realize that my posts are sporadic at best and I can't tell you what  
inspires me to write when I do (well I could on this particular  
occasion but that's probably best kept to myself) but it's better than  
never writing at all, even though I'm fairly certain that when I do  
write here, it's really only for me and the occasional marketer who  
stumbles upon me and thinks, "Hey, this person looks like they want to  
know how to become independently wealthy in just 30 seconds using only  
a computer and a Bobby pin."

But I'm writing none the less and at least someday, if anything  
newsworthy and tragic befalls me, Fox news will have something to  
broadcast to illuminate the inner workings of my mind.

I've spent a lot of time in the last several months contemplating my  
life, where I am and how I got here. I have an amazing family and two  
beautiful, intelligent, witty and independent children. I suppose if  
anything, that may entirely be the only purpose to my life so far. I  
used to say I have no regrets and when it comes to my babies, I don't  
but I find myself wondering how my life might have been different if  
not for a handful of choices I made along the way. That's what life is  
all about really, choices.

 It's not the obvious ones that concern me. I know that I'm a  
stronger person for having made some of the mistakes that I've made  
and I wouldn't have learned the lessons that I had, had I not made  
those choices. It's not the major decisions that others have made that  
directly impacted my own life.

It's the little things like whether or not to turn right or left at a  
specific stop sign, deciding to go out or stay in on a particular  
occasion or whether or not to just simply play a game, like Scrabble or Checkers  
for instance. A lot of times, those seemingly inoccuous choices may  
end up having huge consequences. Perhaps if I had left just a few  
seconds earlier, I would have gotten to a point in the road where a  
driver would have swerved directly into my lane and it would have been  
Goodnight for me.

It's really just musing on my part and I have nothing concrete to  
confirm or deny that any of those choices weren't simply just an act  
of fate. But it does have me wondering where I would be now if not for  
a simple choice I may have made even in high school and for the first  
time in my life, I think I finally feel a little regret for missed  
opportunities. I can't help but wonder what parts of my life might  
have been altered if I hadn't missed them.

So next time your standing in a store line and wondering if you should  
move over to the next one, perhaps take a few more seconds to  
contemplate it. Maybe that one decision could change your life.